The Guy That Trotts On Bocks...

Shit.
That’s the world I use to describe my life at the moment.
Shit.
Very very shitty.
I cannot describe the level of shitiness I am experiencing right now:’(… It’s so horrible!! I can’t stay in this hell-hole…and I know it might seem like I’m running away from my problems, but I’m not…LEAVING is the only solution…and if I can’t do that the normal way (just switching schools), I’m gonna have to take things into my own hands.
I can’t let this place run my life. I AM supposed to run my life, NOT THESE PEOPLE!!:’(
I just have to leave, then I will be the way it used to be…
Happy, energetic, surrounded by family and friends…just the same-old normal Jason (Phil).
Just me.

J.M (P.C.B)

I can’t feel anything.
I can’t do anything.
I just don’t feel like it anymore…it’s like EVERYTHING I do reminds me of home, and just gets me even more depressed.
I don’t want to stay here…I CAN’T stay here anymore…I feel so…
DEAD…
I never used to feel like that at home…I was always cheerful…
But I really can’t do this anymore…
I’m going to break down if I do…

I HATE THIS PLACE.
I MISS MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS.
I WANNA LEAVE THIS HELLHOLE.
I WANNA GO HOME…
You have no idea how much I hate this place…it’s like a pit of darkness, despair, pain….and it just keeps getting deeper and deeper, and I never seem to finally fall…it just keeps going on and on and on…
Not even Justin makes me happy anymore…nothing does.
HELP…

Justin Jacobs….
Damn him and his total control over me….
Honestly, I don’t know when my crazy crush on him started, but I know it’s getting stronger and stronger by the day….and he might feel the same way.
Smiling, winking, talking to me…maybe he likes me too? Yeah right…he’s 23, and I’m 13…sometimes, I don’t get my obsession for older men. It’s like I’m attracted to them, and - somehow - I always seem to think that they like me too….they definitely look like they do.
Getting back to Justin…damn, he’s just amazing!! He’s fair (ok, fair enough), kind, in general, he’s a big old sweetheart!! He’s got short blond hair, those piercing blue eyes of his, and thin lips, which I’d love to smooch all day!! If I could, at least… He’s funny too, and - somehow, I actually don’t know how - he always manages to make me smile, even if he’s saying something that could annoy me…
But another problem has befallen me…he’s the housemaster of our hostel….imagine, ME, falling for someone everyone else hates…
Oh gosh….HELP…

tumblrbot asked: WHERE WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT ON YOUR PLANET?

Well, I would totally love to join y’all in the USA. Then Australia, just to see someone (wink, wink)

I totally just found a school for myself for next year, but if I have to go to that school in the middle of NOWHERE, I’m going to FREAK!!!!!!!!!!!
 The people there are weird (and I mean weirder than I AM!!!!) They stare at me in a funny manner and they don’t know the meaning of GRAMMAR. It’s like a little hellhole and, just to make it worse, I WON’T HAVE FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!

How did YOU survive high school???

Today I saw a woman driving her car, and she had the hugest smile stuck on her face. It actually made me smile, and that made other people smile. And now, as I sit on this chair that hurts my butt, other people are smiling too, which is great because something good (or bad…hopefully not…) made them smile, which is something everyone should do every single day, you could even smile when you’re about to die (who knows…)

Let this be inspiration to all of y’all:

SMILE DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!

I mean, who isn’t????
 The show is pure awesomeness, and everyone knows it (including you Mom)

It’s also quite funny, and the songs are really nice and to make it better, the Glee cast actually sings most of the songs better than the original artists themselves!!!! Who doesn’t agree???

It sucks major ass!!!
 Even though watching TV and blogging helps, I still have to wake up at 5am every morning to go to that hellhole!! It sucks, A LOT!!!

But friends and awesome teachers make it better, which is why I wake up every morning. THANKS GUYS!!!!

 The one thing I hate is the HOMEWORK. It’s way too much, and to make it worse, it’s during exams. How are we supposed to study AND do ALL that HOMEWORK????

Now I have to cut my blog short because I have to STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!